Oh, boy. Let’s talk about some things that I’m truly awful at. I’m sure there are more than 7 things that I could list, as could you, but we’re going to keep it simple. I’m not going to beat myself up or anything, so I’ll keep this light and honest.
- Admitting I’m Wrong/Apologizing – Who actually enjoys admitting when they’re wrong? I doubt anyone does, but I’m sure some of you are able to do it anyway. For me, I struggle admitting I’m wrong or apologizing when I’ve messed up. Not because I don’t truly mean it, but part of it is that with my anxiety, admitting I’m wrong or apologizing puts me on the spot as the center of attention. I hate that. It’s also that I feel so much guilt (apologizing) or awkwardness (admitting I’m wrong), and I overthink it all. I’m aware it’s awful, but I try.
- Making Friends – Once I have friends, I’m so loyal and caring, but making them is a different story. I’m an introvert with anxiety, therefore, I never leave my house except to go to work or do something I have to do. You will NEVER see me shopping, eating, going out, etc. by myself, and because of that, it’s difficult for me to make friends.
- Texting Back – I used to despise people that took hours, days, or even weeks to text back, but somehow, I became one of those people. Not on purpose, but with depression, being a parent, working full-time, and being exhausted, I just don’t have the energy to talk to people as much as I wish I did or like I used to. Please don’t take it personally, I usually either don’t see the message or mentally reply, but forget to actually respond to you.
- Being Emotional/Vulnerable – Long ago, I stopped showing my emotions to people. After the verbal abuse that I endured for years, I was tired of showing others how sensitive and “weak” I was. I took everything personally, and was incredibly hurt. Now, I struggle just to open up to others, especially when it comes to being emotional and letting anyone close to me. I’m working on it, though.
- Whistling and Cartwheels – Do not judge me, I know you’re thinking about it. Two things that I could NEVER learn growing up was how to whistle and doing cartwheels. As an adult, I’m offended by those who KNOW this and still ask me to do it in front of others. LOL
- Letting Go – One of my greatest weaknesses is being unable to let go – of people, trauma, situations. I’ve been through enough to struggle with abandonment issues, so it’s very difficult for me to let go of people, even if they’re no good for me. Trauma sticks with me as if my life depended on it, somehow.
- Patience – For as long as I can remember, I’ve wished I had the patience that most others have. Sure, we all have things that cause us to be impatient, but for me, that is literally everything. I was always told, “When you become a mother, you will gain patience.” Well, that never happened for me. I’m the worst. I’m very impatient about everything, and because of that, I can be quite impulsive, at times.
Like I mentioned before, I’m sure I could think of more, or even better ones to use, but those are the first 7 that came to mind. We are our own worst critic, and sometimes we get down on ourselves. The reason I liked the challenge for today is because it gives us a chance to admit to our faults without being made to feel bad about them. No one is good at everything, and that’s OK. What is something that you’re awful at?
Day 12 coming soon.